1.Wish
Well you're in control
and I know it 'cause I'm miserable again
I don't understand
how any of this makes me a better man
You know I always run to
You for some help with my life
You know I always come to You
for a little wise advice
And all I get is pain
Okay, so I'm exaggerating,
I'm just saying that's how it seems to me
If all good things come to an end,
then what about the bad？
Am I cursed to never see the fruits of
the life I wish I had？
And can I try,
one more time,
to be pleasing to You？
My futile efforts never seem to
make my wish come true
What can I do？
I'll follow through with
all these claims I never cease to make
A promise to myself is one I promise to break
But when I have You
by my side then I can do what's right
I'll become the co-pilot
and You control this flight
Then everything will be alright
If all good things come to an end,
then what about the bad？
Am I cursed to never see the fruits of
the life I wish I had？
And can I try,
one more time,
to be pleasing to You？
My futile efforts never seem to
make my wish come true
What can I do？
This song's for me
A reminder of how I intend my life to be
Every word I sing
Is an anthem against my own hypocrisy
Let me be free
Let me be free
2.Conclusion
Now we'll move on with our lives
and try to make this right
To learn from past mistakes we made before
If you want, I'll leave you be
to figure out yourself
Before you figure out what's defeating me
There's no one left to turn to,
another time we'll try to forget who tried
And now we'll move on with our lives
Not shedding tears, I'll get by
You're better off without it
You're better off without him
You're better off without it
You're better off with anything
Now who came out the better person,
the better human being？
And I'd really like to thank you
for getting that person out of me
I'm wondering how you're doing
and I'm wondering how you've been
And I really hope you're happy
that you're happier with him
That time we spent together,
did it mean anything at all？
And I'm not gonna sit here
wondering why you didn't call
Not shedding tears, I'll get by
You're better off without it
You're better off without him
You're better off without it
You're better off with anything
3.New Years
I tore down masterfully
constructed walls again
I've got some rebuilding to do
Brick by brick I'll try to put them
each back in their place
And leave no window to see through
'It's 4：30 am on a Tuesday,
it doesn't get much worse than this'
I tried to be the kind of friend
I always thought you needed
And this is the thanks I get？
Do I care to take the time
to hear an explanation
Or an unbelieved apology？
I told you from the start
there's be no manipulation
And no psychology
Did you think that you could
get away with using me
And that things would turn out fine？
Well I've got news for you,
we all see through your little game
And you've lost again this time
And this time I won't cry
'cause you haven't earned it
And all your chances have been blown
And if you've treated everyone
the way you treated me
It's no wonder you're perpetually alone
I hope you learn your lesson now
But you can count me out
4.Liar
I have always been so proud of my honest heart
So naturally the truth flows from my mouth
Of course I have lied my share of times in my life
But it's pulling the teeth
they pass to even spit them out
So it's so hard to find
that I've been lying to myself all this time
I say I know you but it's time I realized
This life I lead is far from glorifying
Redundancy is plaguing me,
it happens all the time
Because I just keep trying
And it's so dark in here
And I need you near
To ease my growing fear
So now I know the truth
that I've been missing all along
Or maybe just didn't want to hear
And I confess I'm a lifetime liar
of the truest kind
But I'm no longer blind
And it's so dark in here
And I need you near
So it's so hard to find
that I've been lying to myself all this time
5.Masquerade
Sitting here and reading your thoughts,
my heart sinks once again
'Cause I caught you in another lie,
find no truth in what you said
You say that you'll hurt my feelings
You say I won't understand
I say you're just a coward
Just a counterfeit friend
And all the times I've been there,
they didn't mean a thing
At least not to you,
but I know they meant something to me
And I wish that I could give up,
is that what you want from me？
Because I'm still your friend
even if you don't want me to be
Much the Same-Masqerade
My promises are haunting me,
not so easily shoved aside
And yet I keep on trying to finally justify
Taking every single word back,
every pledge I ever made
Because the friend I swore them to
was nothing but a masquerade
And all the times I've been there,
they didn't mean a thing
At least not to you,
but I know they meant something to me
And I wish that I could give up,
is that what you want from me？
Because I'm still your friend
even if you don't want me to be
Then you ask if something's wrong
If only you could hear this song
You'd just make up some lame excuse
So it's no use listening to you
And all the times I've been there,
they didn't mean a thing
At least not to you,
but I know they meant something to me
And I wish that I could give up,
is that what you want from me？
Because I'm still your friend
even if you don't want me to be
What do you do when you're not lying,
do you have other words to say？
Why do I have to try so hard
to keep from pushing you away？
I wish that I could give up,
is that what you want from me？
Because I'm still your friend
even if you've never been one to me
6.Hits Home
'She's just a friend,'
he said, 'and that's all she'll ever be
But I can't get these thoughts of her out of my head
The cliche story once again,
not as dramatic as it could be
But I can't help the way
my thoughts are being led'
Can't you see she loves you in a special way？
Maybe more than you will ever really know
'Cause your mind is focused on a fictional storyline
You'll miss the happiness reality could hold
'This all hits home,'
I said, 'and I can't believe it took so long
For me to finally see what's going on
With so many troubles in her life,
romantic feelings wear her down
All she needs is someone that she can lean on'
Can't you see she loves you in a special way？
Maybe more than you will ever really know
'Cause your mind is focused on a fictional storyline
You'll miss the happiness reality could hold
I'll be your friend through thick and thin
The kind that you can always run to
When you're hurting and you need a helping hand
I'll be your friend when things are great
And all you wanna do is share your smile
And your cheerful happiness
I'll be your friend through your mistakes
'Cause we both know I've had my share
And yet you never took the chance to run away
I'll be your friend because you love me
For reasons I may never know
And that means more than meager words could ever say
You mean more than any words could ever say
7.Quitters Never Win
I've waited long enough
and I've been putting it all off
It's time I got myself going again
I've made enough excuses
to last 'til the end of time
I've got to move forward with my plans
I tell myself that I am not cut out for this
I don't like anything that's happening now
But when I think of losing
everything I've done so far
I know I've got to make it work somehow
What good is a friend
if you can't look him in the eye？
What good is honesty
if it feels like a lie？
What good is a dream
if you never even try？
I thought that I was free
and that I left that guy behind
I wanted to believe
that someday I'd reach the sky
And if I don't press on
then I'll watch the new me die
And the sadder self survive
This isn't as easy as they make it look on TV
I'd never have guessed it was so hard
And maybe you can hear it
in the strain of my voice
The perils of it caught me off guard
But when you know that
burning deep inside of you
Is not something so easily ignored
You get back on that horse
no matter how many times you fall
'Cause it's better than
everything you've done before
What good is a friend
if you can't look him in the eye？
What good is honesty
if it feels like a lie？
What good is a dream
if you never even try？
I thought that I was free
and that I left that guy behind
I wanted to believe
that someday I'd reach the sky
And if I don't press on
then I'll watch the new me die
And the sadder self survive
My life is chronicled in lapses of writer's block
Opening a window to let my feelings be mocked
You ask me why I put myself through this, to you I say
If you've ever chased a dream
you know I can have it no other way
This is me today
8.One of a Kind
These last few weeks
there's been lots of talk about the past
About the true loves
we've all lost and the ones we never had
Vicariously reliving the pain of
saying goodbye to you
Has left me wondering exactly
what you've been up to
I've long since gotten
over the aftermath of my mistakes
Had pointed out to me the error of my ways
But the little things
keep showing up inside my mind
And a better friend than
you were I don't think that I can find
But now seeing you again
Reminds me thankfully of
why the bar was raised so high
I'm not writing you this song
To say I want you back it's simply
that I hope I'll never lose you again
I think about the days we spent together
I come to realize it's all blurry
and I can't remember
All that much except how happy
we both were back then
And how these days
I'm not even sure
if I can call you friend
But now seeing you again
Reminds me thankfully of
why the bar was raised so high
I'm not writing you this song
To say I want you back it's simply
that I hope I'll never lose you again
9.Miss the Pain
It's so easy to look outside myself
and point out all the blame
I'm saddened when I see a friend
no longer acting the same
I wonder how each one of them
so easily falls away
But the answer is identical
to how I got this way
No longer am I looking to you
In darkness I have remained
The struggling's a thing of the past
And sometimes I miss the pain
That pain is the evidence
I'm fighting for a cause
Every temptation a hurdle
I know we can cross
But then I let my guard down
and the battle is gone
Complacency takes over
so I know something's wrong
No longer am I looking to you
In darkness I have remained
The struggling's a thing of the past
And sometimes I miss the pain
Help me, help me find my way
I'm tired, I'm tired
of living this way
I need you to bring me back home
Because I,
because I hate being alone, all alone
10.Someday Not Soon
What happens when it all comes to an end
Gone from the one
your closest friend
There is no doubt your love is something real
Goodbyes are hard,
the pain will heal
I wish I had some scholarly advice
Something that could make it all go away
But I will always be there when you call
And offer a shoulder when you need to cry
'Cause I'm always here,
I'll always care
I'm praying for you I want you to be aware
Someday not soon
the memories of pain will fade away
But a contented love will always remain
I've been through this myself
a couple times before
I wish I could say it wouldn't be so bad
Second song to you
is not more cheery than the last
I wish it didn't have to be so sad
'Cause I'm always here,
I'll always care
I'm praying for you I want you to be aware
Someday not soon
the memories of pain will fade away
But a contented love will always remain
But a contented love will always remain
11.Still Falling
Thoughts get trapped inside my brain
Break my ribs so I can uncage
All these emotions that still dwell inside my heart
26 hours, where you remain
And I'm force fed all this pain
In heaping spoonfuls that are slowly killing me
Wait for me
But that's unfair to ever ask of anybody
Are you still falling？
I'm glad you found someone
so now you can breathe
But not for me
The tickle of knives is better than this
But fresh cuts wouldn't help distract
An already bruised and broken soul
So this is my song to you
To tell you just how much I miss you
And I think about you every day
Wait for me
But that's unfair to ever ask of anybody
Are you still falling？
I'm glad you found someone
so now you can breathe
But not for me
12.Father ＆ Son
Hello, it's me, your only son
Writing to you now
because I haven't seen you in so long
Even though we live in the same home
You're the father that I've never known
I get up each day,
you're already gone
Drive past your office late at night
And see the light still on
Why do you care more about your job
Than about the family falling apart？
Don't even know you
Can't understand you
Never stopped to think of anyone else
Hello, my boy, your letter hurt me so
18 years I've worked so hard,
while I missed seeing you grow
I was just trying to provide for you
All my efforts thrown back in my face
Every morning I say a prayer for you
As I lose another day making it the best for you
Someday you'll wake up and you'll realize
And you'll thank me for how hard I tried
Don't even know you
Can't understand you
Never stopped to think of anyone else
It's always been about you
But I'm a person too
I feel like giving up
I've had about enough
Don't even know you
Can't understand you
Never stopped to think of anyone else
I gave up more for you
than you'll ever understand
But you were never there for me
when life went bad
Son, I always tried to give you
all the things I never had
But all I ever wanted was a dad
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